The Terminal

I feel like I'm living that movie (and Lost in translation as well - but that's different story). No I didn't get stuck in the terminal of Changi airport after coming from home. I'm safe and sound and legally in Singapore.
Despite I've got more place to walk and I've got place to return to. Despite I've got people to talk to and I've got things to do. Despite all this I still feel abandoned in the middle of masses and stuck among many things that are happening on their own, each of them passing by me as any unknown person would do in Changi terminal.
And myself being nowadays unreliable negotiation partner with very unsure future I can't (or don't want to) do anything about them.
Anyway - at same time I should be doing ten things but my mind is busy waiting for good news of any kind. So any will be appreciated.